Sunday, November 30, 2008
Saturday, November 29, 2008
Friday, November 28, 2008
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
- Go to Dentist-have filling replaced
- Drop off boots at Cobbler's
- Brave the crowds at Tra.der Joes
- Carry 30 lbs of groceries back home
- Eat More Sushi
- Do 5 loads of laundry
- Conference Call (I'm 'working' from home today)
- Check email and make sure there's nothing that can't wait until Monday
- Pick up Dry Cleaning
- Go to regular grocery store
- Buy a case of cat food at pet store
- Peel and chop 3 lbs of carrots for "Citrus Gl.azed Carrots"
- Make 2 loaves of Pumpkin Bread
- Peel 4 lbs of squash and 2 lbs of turnips for casserole
- Peel and quarter 6 lbs of pears for "pear and blueberry cobbler with cornmeal biscuits"
- Discover Pears are not ripe enough.
- Make Gingerbread instead
- Go to Gym (K)
- Listen to Pan.dora Radio while doing most of the above
- Make Punjabi Chicken and Spinach for Dinner
- Watch a movie
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
But last night….for the first time in a month…I slept without a ‘cough sweet’ clinging to the roof of my mouth.
It was still there, tucked under my pillow ‘just in case’ when I woke up this morning (I can’t leave them on the night stand because the monster hones in on them and plays cat-as-hockey-player games in the dark of the night and all you hear is ping-rustle rustle-ping as he bounces them against the wall).
What I didn’t know is that K has been finding the wrappers all over the bed! Haha!
Vee and Jay, I know you are horrified right now—possibly beyond words—to learn that I’ve continued on with my deadly practice. But here I am—Alive!
I asked my mom about this ‘practice’ of mine and she said while she doesn’t do it ‘regularly’, she has done it.
So there you go: blame it on my mother!
Day 27: Finally called the RE about the spotting issue.....I know I should've done it earlier. But we talked and while he was concerned, he said that we'll do a day 3 U/S and bloodwork and go from there. He also said "since you had an irregular period, this may very well go hand in hand with that" which, yeah, is kind of what I was thinking. He says there's no cause for concern UNLESS this becomes a pattern with me. So, now....just waiting for the Old Red Head to make a visit...should be any day now...or not considering this month has been somewhat out of whack. Either way, I'm ready.
I'm not saying we're thinking about moving...but it's a nicer place for gays today.
ETA: I know this decision still has to go further and will be appealed but the fact that something positive is happening at all gives me hope.
Monday, November 24, 2008
Times are tough. You're lucky I'm still coming into your crappy deli because there's a better one 3 blocks further I prefer.
But when you give me a $7 tuna melt 'panini' and the cheap American cheese isn't even melted...that's not a panini, Mr. Deli Man--that's a half-assed job and it's not like you were even busy.
While I'm sure there are worse things than a non-melted, lukewarm panini I can't think of any right now because I'm starving and I want to eat my lunch.
But it's in the toaster oven getting hot.
That girl who probably isn't going to come back any time soon.
ETA: The other deli doesn't give me free chips with my panini so I'm taking this as a sign the universe doesn't want me to eat potato chips.
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Saturday, November 22, 2008
Friday, November 21, 2008
- Wrapping paper or gift bags? Both + I've done the recyclable brown bags personally decorated. I'm also obsessive at gift Unwrapping time making sure no gift bags get thrown out--then I gather them up, take them home and use them the next year.
- Real tree or Artificial? REAL and hideously Manhattan overpriced.
- When do you put up the tree? Early December
- When do you take the tree down? Hopefully before New Years but I was really lazy one year and it stayed up for an extra month. Then I didn't feel like hauling it down 4 flights of stairs and it 'looked' like it would fit through the window so I thought I'd just push it out of the window into the courtyard below. That didn't work out so well. Sawing was involved.
- Do you like eggnog? Yum.
- Favorite gift received as a child? My mom made me a dollhouse out of cardboard boxes and it was amazing. We were so poor and she would hand sew all of the clothes for my dolls, too. I didn't think much about it then, but looking back now--those gifts were amazing.
- Hardest person to buy for? I don't 'love' shopping, so none of it is easy.
- Easiest person to buy for? Me!
- Do you have a nativity scene? Nope, but we have a Buddha and a Ganesh;)
- Mail or email Christmas cards? Definitely mail and I'm working on the labels this week.
- Worst Christmas gift you ever received? Pretty much anything from my FIL that isn't a check is bad. He has no taste and doesn't ever buy you what you want only what he wants.
- Favorite Christmas Movie? The Sound of Music. I know, it hasn't nothing to do with Christmas, but I usually watch it at Christmas time.
- When do you start shopping for Christmas? I shop all year long when I see something and keep it in my Christmas pile. Then I shop from my Christmas pile and hopefully never set foot in a store after Thanksgiving. Or I shop online.
- Have you ever recycled a Christmas present? Oh yes, indeed.
- Lights on the tree? White lights
- Favorite Christmas song? I get sick of all of them pretty fast but I dig "Feliz Navi.dad" sung by José F.eliciano and the "Nutcr.acker" suite.
- Travel at Christmas or stay home? Travel - upstate NY or to South East Asia.
- Can you name all of Santa's reindeer's? Si.
- Angel on the tree top or a star? Neither. I think we tied a ribbon there last year.
- Open the presents Christmas Eve or morning? Both
- Most annoying thing about this time of the year? Over commercialization; never ending soundtrack of Christmas songs beginning right after Halloween.
- Favorite ornament theme or color? I don't think I have one. I like variety.
- Favorite meal for Christmas dinner? Turkey and stuffing and lots of sides!
- What do you want for Christmas this year? Considering I'll be testing Dec. 24/25th, a BFP would be most excellent. Otherwise, Cash is King.
I tag the ladies at Babypants!
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
- The training course yesterday was challenging to say the least.
- I had to learn a 2-week course of HTML in 7 hours.
- There were only 3 of us in the class and the other 2 had taken an HTML class before.
- I am not a techie at ALL.
- Right about 1pm I thought I might burst into tears from frustration.
- I did not.
- I don't do well with being in last place.
- I'm still exhausted.
- It's sporadically in my CM and when I use the loo since Day 19.
- I ovulated on Day 17.
- There's no way I could be starting my period.
- It's now Day 21.
- Internet says "mid-cycle spotting is normal".
- Not normal for me.
- Acupuncturist gave me herbs to warm my qi.
- I'm running cold these days (and my temps prove it).
- Let me say it one more time: It was a good month to take a break.
- Not us.
- Thanks for all of your comments--they sent me to reality check land.
- We will continue to visit relatives for the free sun and sand.
- I am trying to embrace the freezing--whoops, brisk!--wind on my walk to work and back.
- I like lesbians--obviously--I married one.
- I have a great group of lesbian friends and I really like hanging out with them.
- But not at bars.
- I don't put myself in a box that says "lesbian" on the label because that's not 'who' I am.
- Lesbian bars make me very boxed in and uncomfortable.
- NYC bar flies seem to be like the popular clique in HS. They all look the same and act the same and have the same haircut.
- Over it.
- Glad to hear others don't "get it" either!
Well, that turned into a long post after all.
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Monday, November 17, 2008
It’s hard to go from 84 degrees in
We could buy a beautiful home—something impossible for us to do here—and I would not have to work and instead could take care of the baby (you know, in case we actually have one) for a couple of years. There would be a yard and the beach nearby and sunshine most of the year. And yes, the odd hurricane, but hey you can’t have everything.
If a lesbian couple were to do second parent adoption in say…
Anyone know these answers without me calling a lawyer?
It looks like some of you who are doing NamBloHoMo are tag-teaming! I cry Foul!
It’s putting me behind in my commenting, but so far, I’ve written my post every single day—by myself!
Tonight: meeting a bunch of friends to attend the Lesbian mag party sponsored by G.O.! Should be fun except I’m exhausted from arriving back home last night and not getting enough sleep and I just found out I have an all-day training 9-5 tomorrow.
Good thing I’m ‘allowing’ myself a bit of caffeine in emergency moments such as tomorrow’s training…
Sunday, November 16, 2008
Saturday, November 15, 2008
Today is Day 17 and there's no surge.
BUT, my temp did not spike this morning to show that I have ovulated as I expected it to.
Is this normal...if you ovulate 24-36 hours after the surge...?
This is confusing. I feel like it never gets any easier trying to figure it out.
I give up. I'm going to go eat ice cream instead.
Friday, November 14, 2008
She became that person who screams at the gate agent and almost gets security called on her. This is a woman who travels too much, has too many flight delays to deal with every week and she snapped. When she finally calmed down enough (she was told no one would help her until she stopped using profanity), they issued her a ticket to Orlando (an hour and 1/2 away) and I found myself driving at midnight to pick her up.
I was amazed at the amount of frogs hopping on the highway in the dark of the night. I had no choice; splat. I love frogs, I'm so sorry froggies.
Unfortunately she had so much work today she never got out of her p.j.'s until 5pm, so I held court at the pool by myself (Gram doesn't go outside in the sunshine--why is she in Florida???). Just me and the old ladies (who smoke--so gross!) doing leg lifts in the shallow end.
Got back to the house in time to see a bobcat prowling around on the back wall and later tonight, the space shuttle lifted off--rocket red skies at night.
Weather wise, I heart this place. I could live here with the warm sea breezes, curtains billowing in the wind, palm trees rustling. I love it. We love it.
Someday....we will be closer to the equator. Someday...
Thursday, November 13, 2008
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
She had a lot of travel scheduled for me the same month and I told her I couldn't do it....and she asked why...and well, I had to tell her.
It has ended up being a really good thing. She has a son, 18 months old, is the same age as me, suffered an early miscarriage this summer while TTC #2 and we've been able to talk about a lot of things.
What I didn't realize is that we are on the same.exact.cycle. And did I mention she is TTC as well?
And that we are a 2-person team? If we get pregnant at the same time...oh dear.
I admit I'm jealous that she is the same age as me and tonight has access to fresh, free sperm.
I don't want it to feel like a contest...but it feels a little like a race.
Day 14. I've been temping, charting, peeing on sticks. I find it very reassuring that my body is doing exactly what it is supposed to be doing. My chart looks excellent, I've got EWCM, I'm surging and...I must be releasing intoxicating pheromones because last night FOUR guys blatantly hit on me as I was walking and 2 this morning on my way to work. They must smell my body is ripe for baby making...it's crazy. I have something they want and they have something I need. It would be so easy...except for that pesky lesbian business.
Sitting out a cycle has been relatively stress-free and easy. I've enjoyed it up until this day when I just want to get my hands on some sperm.
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Monday, November 10, 2008
This article makes me so angry.
I haven't blogged about Prop 8 as I'm still sorting out how I feel, what it means for me and my marriage and what I can personally do about it.
Either way when I told my wife that our marriage is now in legal limbo, she bent backwards and started doing the limbo.
You have nothing in this life if you lose your sense of humor--even about the truly spectacular, shitty stuff.
It figures that there are protests running amok the one weekend I will not be in NYC to attend.
I'll be in a state where at least 50% of the population clearly hates the gays. But only for 4 days. Then I'll be back in the blissful belly of NYC.
But you--yeah YOU--go march and yell and let them see that you are gay and you aren't going away.
You know what I'm most pissed about? The week before the election--Where were all of these gays who are now protesting in CA? Why weren't they out there at the rallies organizing to get the message out about Prop 8?
Too little, too late.
Either way, one more reason for me to despise the hateful Christians.
So, so ignorant.
Sunday, November 9, 2008
Apparently I'm a bit of a monkey charmer, because this little guy, a Goeldi's marmoset (he would fit in your hand) couldn't take his eyes off of me. It was so bizarre! I would move from left to right and he would hop from branch to branch following me. Then we'd do it all over again. Sometimes, I'd hide behind the bamboo out of his vision and he would move in order to see me. I must've stayed there with him for a good 20 minutes and had his full attention. K was amazed. We went through the rest of the monkey house and on our way out stopped by again to see if it was just a fluke and nope, I charmed him again. Maybe I look like his handler? I could've stayed there all day!
The Madagascar exhibit was great! The lemurs are stinky but they sure are cute. This is another country high on our list of places to go...and they high scuba diving there, too! Lemur trekking in the jungle followed by spectacular diving? Sounds like our idea of a great holiday.
These are for Heidi!
Loved that the peacocks just got to roam around at will.
A glimpse of the giraffes as we left...
Wonderful weekend--hope yours was too!
Saturday, November 8, 2008
Friday, November 7, 2008
The Monster loves Thursday nights because it means play under the clean sheets--those are his feet in the air once I've tucked all four corners of the sheet in . Yes, it means every single one of our fitted sheets have holes in them...but it's a small price to pay for this much fun.
Thursday, November 6, 2008
- TTC #3 May, probable chemical
- TTC #6 August, miscarriage
- TTC #7 October, probable chemical
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
Monday, November 3, 2008
The cats on the other hand, have been super happy to have someone to lay on 24/7.
I finally went to work this morning as I had a 10am meeting with my boss and guess who is calling in to the meeting? My boss (who still hasn't called...) I could've stayed at home.
I feel like this is the longest "non-flu" cold that I've ever had. I don't usually get sick and this has me down. However, I feel good about my decision to take the month off TTC as my body is obviously weakened and needs a rest.
Today is much better. I started taking some sinus meds that finally relieved the massive migraine pressure that called itself my head. If you suffer from migraines, you know what I'm talking about.
K ended up not getting home yesterday until quite late as she had to stick around and help her mother with car trouble. This meant I saw K for a total of 10 hours the entire weekend (not counting sleeping) and I am sorely missing her.
Oh and I guess I'm doing NamBloPoMoHoMo or whatever it is. But I'm not signing up.
Sunday, November 2, 2008
I thought we'd be enjoying another upstate hike this Sunday, but no, I haven't left the house in over 48 hours.
Here's to remembering better weekends!
The Tree That Ate a Sign
Gorgeous viewpoint overlooking the Hudson River.
Reflecting Pool of Colors....